There’s always an option
You always have an option. The reason why I believe in this phrase is because when I was in trouble I felt like there was no way out. I kept on believing that I would never get out of trouble and have my life back. But that thinking got me put in lockup. When I got placed in detention I really felt like my life was heading in the wrong direction and at that time I felt like I could not switch it around to the right direction. But what really didn’t help were my parents leaving me to rot in this place. In addition to that my parents didn’t even write me to see if I was ok and that ended up making me feel worse.
And when I was feeling this way for the longest time I thought to myself dang I really do have to do this on my own. I didn’t think I could do anything for the longest time when I was feeling this way in the detention program. So for many days I was not making my days and the reason why was because I was not meeting the requirements of the point system and the point system was based on your day so that is why I didn’t make my days there. And the reason why I had this bad behavior is because I felt like no one was there for me. And to tell you the truth I was scared out of my mind because I really didn’t know what to do and plus this was my first time getting locked up.
So one day I was sitting in the Day room. The Dayroom is a place where the whole group can be together and sit and do homework and do what staff directs you to do. And most of the time the group would chill in the day room because the rooms were not great and what I mean by not great is that it was a concrete brick room with a metal toilet and a brick block to sleep on between a little blue thin mattress with a little small window to look outside of. And one day I was sleeping in my room because I got bored out in the dayroom because there was not much you could do in there so I laid down on my concrete block bed with a thin blue mattress between me and the block and I was laying there just staring out the window thinking to myself what did I do and why am I throwing my life away for this and was it really worth it? So then when I was asking myself these questions in my head the buzzer suddenly went off and then I woke up to reality and heard staff talking through the intercom just rate above my head with a little silver button that you had to press to say something back. So then I pressed the button above my head and said in the intercom what and then I let go of the button so I could hear staff talk. Then when I did let go staff said you got a letter so then when I heard that I jumped out of my so called bed and hurried to my door and waited for the door to click to lead me out of my room so I could be ready when the door unlocked.
Then when the door unlocked I went in the dayroom and when I arrived in the dayroom staff came out of the control room and told me that I could look at them because when the control door opens you cannot look that way because they might think you were trying to look in the control room and if you did you would get points taken away and that could cause you to lose your day and basically when you’re locked up you need to make your days to get out of there. So anyway staff handed me the letter and I opened it and had them check it to see if there was no contraband in it. Then when they checked I read it and the person that wrote me said don’t worry Josh there’s always options no matter where you go. And when I read that suddenly everything got brighter for me because I was glad that someone wrote me and then that phrase came to be realistic to me when I started making my days and staff rumors were saying that I was about to leave and end up going to foster care and then sooner or later it did happen. And when I left that phrase ended up meaning something to me because it helped me through my experience that gave me a positive outlook on life in a way. And from what I told you there is an option no matter where you go you just got to look in the right spot and when you do you know you’re ready to take a step forward. Also I hope you learn from this and don’t end up making the same mistakes I made and also where I went was not that bad and there was nothing cool about going there and please don’t think of me bragging about this because that was not my intention, my intention was for the peaple that are getting in trouble to stop what they are doing because if they don’t not only that person will get hurt but also their family and the peaple that care about that person also.
